When I walked in the door and saw that note on the table, my heart dropped. āGood-bye!ā written in my wifeās handwriting. I started calling her like crazy āĀ no answer.Ā Then I remembered the little security cam Iād installed months ago above the front door (she did not know about it). Since I travel so much, it gives me peace of mind.
I opened the app, rewound it to two hours ago, and what I saw brought me toĀ tears.
My wife and our kids were sitting on the living room floor, gathered around a calendar. My wife was crying softly. I turned up the volume on my phone to hear what was happening.
āI know, babies, I know,ā she was saying to the kids, wiping her eyes. āDaddy comes home today, but he has to leave again next week. We have to be strong for him. We canāt make him feel guilty for working.ā
She grabbed the notepad and a marker. āLetās practice, okay? Letās practice saying it so we donāt cry when he leaves next time.ā
She wroteĀ āGood-bye!āĀ in big, bold letters on the paper and placed it on the table.
āReady?ā she asked, her voice trembling. āOne, two, three⦠Good-bye, Daddy!ā
But the kids didnāt say it. They just hugged her. And my wifeāmy strong, resilient wifeāburied her face in her hands and sobbed. āI canāt do it,ā she whispered. āI hate that word. I hate that heās always gone. I just want him home.ā
The video showed them hugging for a long time. Then, my wife took a deep breath, slapped her cheeks, and stood up.
āOkay! No more sadness!ā she declared, though her eyes were still red. āDaddy is coming homeĀ today. Letās go to the store and get the ingredients for his favorite lasagna. We are going to celebrate him being here!ā
They rushed out the door in a hurry to beat the traffic, leaving the āpractice noteā on the tableāthe note that had nearly stopped my heart.
I sat on the couch, watching the empty room on my phone screen, tears streaming down my face. I realized then that my āprovidingā for them was costing us everything that actually mattered. The money wasnāt worth the heartbreak of my absence.
Just then, the front door handle turned. My wife and kids walked in, grocery bags in hand, laughing.
When she saw me, she dropped the bags and smiled. āYouāre early!ā
I didnāt say a word. I just walked over, pulled her and the kids into the tightest hug of my life, and whispered, āNo more traveling. Iām finding a local job. No more goodbyes.ā
